Sugar, My Sweet Connoisseur in the Arts of Blood, Sugar! (And No Tears) written by mr. winterfuhr except track 12 written by Her and raped by me. "Oh, no this pleasure is just at the edge of fury - I could devour you. How will I ensure restraint, especially since it will be so brief, since there really is no tomorrow?" -the not-all-mine sweet cognoscenti in the arts of blood as before. i'm sorry i quoted someone on track 11. he wrote... in some touching way. bled enough in April 21st 1006, after two & a crescent of moons of doing that not enough it seems "it is crap compared to what you wrote before I came along" so there: 1. For noone but Mir ch.. conjured all girl and fox in one and grinful otherkins i'm shocked now that it is been done we might almost be twins hih you've seen all effete centuries i've mostly longed by those with identical fantasies we act out, live our prose i'm worried about you my sis for i do give a fuck! but in the time as sad as this i would just like to hug... so damn you, girl and damn you much you made me cry again i do not care does crying touch or would just fuck do then i wonder how a fox girl Loves i wish you could tell me (but what will then become of us should you choose secrecy?) i'd love you red i'd bite you dead that enough to fulfill you? but please my fox dont die just yet or i will fucking kill you (feb1006) 2. The Blood-related Experiments thujone nembutal creamstout venom is what's this about oblige Me get drugged and tied fragrant girl I'd hate you blind now My sis do as you're told meet Me in snowgarden-cold neon warship emo sins second nolife here begins triton kisses compared none gnaws that grow red bites ne'er gone next to drudkh My rage shall be music that mourns more softly beasts Us both cut pleased to laugh wounds We've got and now We have taken over asylum beast menagerie sactum am I early? tell Me that I shall torture like big cat when you're here you'll meet My hate for too long you've made Me wait when you're here I'll make you pay - you've drugged Me to lxxx again (feb1006) 3. On the Verge of Spanning the Stars Now as the days are cold and brief And coldening still they are For nothing freezes like a good old grief Yet new this all is by far There were times in near past but cold overseas And past like this is always harsh All I saw was steel and dead leaves She was on the verge of spanning the stars Over there I did dream and leap and dive I said to her that I could her kill But scars she left only and me alive And do they pain me still! I refuse to believe she's dead and gone This is somekind of sick fucking game She will get back to me, fix things undone She'll feel alive and I will feel the same Love letters in languages some day very dead Of those this really is one I will die with her and I will beg To not resuscitate (except with tongue) Hardpan, broken rocks, girls broken too Of those are now made my war stories I drink I cut I fuck, this is true Yet cannot break free from true worries No this doesn't hurt much, but it paralyzes me And that is the pain most dreadful Livid bruises and extreme amounts of codeine Welcome to my pain most deadful .. Ow crrrap.... She told she loved me and what did I! I was too fucking slow If she really did that she did really die She never got to know ... (march1006) 4. This is a dream, this is extreme The Girl all wound and hurt and sore She's lying on the forest floor Being raped and tortured by a wolf Quite hard a nuzzling me to solve Especially when forced to watch I'd kill him but not with these odds Tight tied up, being tortured too Another wolf and girl wee cruel It's not the wolf and so in spades The human girl it's either I bare my teeth to her with hates For love I'd never bite her My Sis it is the One who makes Me cum and cum beside Her Her agony, Her pain alone That makes me yet so hard But I'd stop lament, end my moan Can't stand to see Her part This passion, hunger overgrown I'd 'most cut graveyheart Her consciousness all lost & dead My vulpine conscience filled bloodlet Think anyvice I'd do some more For corpse of Her I'd do them all And that exactly what I did The feeling left - I feel like shit When came last time and reached the end 'tis way too much to comprehend I fucking cannot this accept The torment grows, She can't be dead! I cry myself I cry me dry I cuddle Her all terrified The worst thing is: eventually There is tomorrow still for me And that is something I DON'T need She SHOULD have taught me well to bleed... NO... Now I write this ALIVE She is I'm sorry but She is my Sis And I love Her way more than much I'd probably gave Her my guts I'd pass my heart for Her to touch I cannot write Her dead... uh *cuts* (march1006) 5. Snow Leopard Fucks (I really can't say who did this to her but I hope I I mean he has invested in some steri-strips) Saccharywine fractalsharp New wounds more than twenty You hurt me like event art Yoghurt me plenty... But it is I who hurts you more A hex to dig out some begs Metaldrifting delve red ore I invite you for animal secks Dear Connoisseur in the Arts of Blood No equal like with a big whitish cat In your arts you might be a lunatic god But in our-ore-mine I'd fuck godbyes to > I love you and love you to encraze My blow is a cute brute bore this brunt Dear girl, this IS cruel but in beauty-phrase I know a beautiful word and that word is cunt Rare it is to bleed like this Rare it is your meat I'd down my thirst with your finish Alive I want you, alive to eat (march1006) 6. They call me Winter, they call me wolf Should I find a girl I'd love I'd love to die with her Of all the cliches skulk above Our Death that's always there This story should be more than true This indeed is my will Of all things only this would do Our Death must be all real So friends, in grieve don't surrender You were no friends to me You knew me but you did not care Of me, of poetry Only one learnt everything For her I fell this dead And thanks for asking, she did bring Delight of all she read I could've written this long ago With final chapters different But finally found her - and so She's all I need to befriend (With one exception this is through And that exception's She made me love her a_little, too With love vague but not ) An' now I lay myself to wait With a blade in my paw I think of art we'll soon create With grin I start to draw...... (march1006) 7. We Bled at Lukida Anseris a lithe shedding, foxlike as it'll ever be grinded me and grinded earthy chalk coffee the love-bitten girl bitten not by me a sufferer for summerstars all too wintry she dreams of them stars with a gentlesveltesmile no more wispy high clouds, the stars her empire she stares at the arrantpure stars and dreams and i stare at her (in secret with tearmade seams) (april1006) "Who are you and why are you here with me? You have loved... I pale." 8. All Light Only Darkens Her I'm truly sorry about this. A strange eerie connection we have I feel it like a ghastly breeze No wind i've known howl'd this vile laugh No one else has made me sneeze Storm blown mind for eerywind to whirl Shattered, whimsical and starborne All light only darkens around her All that's left is me and i mourn She's not my fox of teh activated charcoal With a device she only could make Me do anything she ever wanted so So well, so wright, this play & played! I don't know her she keeps claiming Well! Did i know the wolf beauty? Is my death not worth her saving Say nay and i say 'you never knew ME' I'm sorry my bitterness dark but you know the reason you know it not? And I know of no reason why charcoalfoxtreason should ever... Ei oikein jaksa näin valoisaa elämää Aseen liekki tai heijastus terässä Kaikki valo se häntä vaan synkistää Sinne menee, mut miepä menen perässä (april1006) 9. Suspended in Formalin She told me to not write of her anymore so I reckon I will have to obey. On the other paw, she also told me to destroy everything I had written of her, but that I cannot do. She did her best, I guess, to destroy me, to make me turn away, but I'm sorry - that I cannot do, because of love. Stupid, stupid, stupid love. I will turn away when it is worn out, it cannot be just suppressed in any way. I feel I did my best to be good to her, but it was not enough. I did something wrong. But I tried, I really tried. I cannot blame her for feeling I was not good enough for her, but - and this is an imporant but, for it only keeps me alive for some more time - I can't blame myself either, for I truly feel I tried my best. So I guess again that I end up just saying I'm sorry. That I can do and that indeed I am. (april1006) 10. Sweet Nxxxxi Cum Okays, let's do something compLEATly unexpected - again! Ihana nxxxxilumpparipoika! Tahtoisin halata sut, sitoa sut kiinni, suudella ja hyväillä siut kokonaan ja sitten vaan imeä, sillä oot niin ihana, että tahtoisin vaan tuottaa sulle nautintoa. Oon varmaan vähän ihastunut, ollut jo pitkään... Oot niin ihana. Auuh. Kohta viimeistään uskon, ettei näitä kukaan oikeasti lue, tämä niinkuin on ihan se viimeinen testi tällä saralla. Menoksi siis: swe-EET Nxxxxi to me cum I gladly confess: crush IST dumb I'd cuddle, hug, begin to suck with NOthing you could do to STOP I'd try you, tie you, bite you, CURSE your name so sweet, let crush grow worse Then swallow you devour and fall Your cum sweet, snowleopard and all and then I'd cut your throat - GENTLY I'd hurt you NO accidently just so you'd get a frightened face You had to trust me in my craze Too much I'd NEVER hurt you, hun Your blood is precious, as your cum something You are I only miss I'm SURE, I bet NO ONE reads this! Edes tuo ihana lumpparipoika (april1006) 11. Sitten hän suuteli minua hyvästiksi ja löi kovaa. Useita kertoja. The other inmates they raced free _I_ raced but stumbled on the floor The hungry wolves they raced for me And then we raced - no more It wasn't like this all NINE turns back Back then I should have died Now they all spring forth, attack And I've got no cave to hide "Sex sucks. I hate it. Its bullshit." Of all the tears this one tore Of all the kisses this one bit "Its the reason i dont have a gf anymore." The other leopards raced for cover I raced to have her once more I raced and had only a broken lover And then I crashed down on the floor (aprkl1006) 12. I say mew! I'm writing in some lushy voiced misty place unreal. You leap to touch and then you're under water What? Somehow you managed to tie a washing machine to your ankles before you jumped into the river – I sigh and even without raising my gaze or my pen I say "I cannot hear you anymore" Too late now. This is not how you wanted to go I assume, you sign, sigh, words expire in bubbles. Not at allcut waking with some gasp, think- ing that dream did suck and despite the deathwish you'll never, never do the down, down drown with the aid of domestic objects. You cuddle snow leopard tighter still and as you drift again to sleep you dreamt you was awakened by Don't hurt him cruel girl (the plushies). uh You know I'd never have said that so I deleted the rest and now no one will ever know. "Wait wait you know what I meant" you say and anyway you're dreaming. "Cut me here just for fun and then we'll call it even". Then in some cavern vaguely lit... You've been here before, but wait that's this. "Oh Winterfuhr come closed now let me see you see me. Don't flash, flash and fade likethat I will that you be real." I hear that pleasant figure saying and then you touch my breast well furred and with the pink nipples ("most delicious" whaaat?) Your teeth want to graze grase suck bite and twist (let me put also craze to exist) Eradicate this now. "What? I must mis- understand", you say, "I cannot here you hear and un- accustomed I am to reading muzzles anyway. Something like eradicate, no ingratiate, suffocate or masticate." Half of me looks human to you now and I look down to see that half of you is furred. Split straight down the middle You whore bitch cunt what have you done - you damn well know I never cared for symmetry, this will not do. You heard that part well enough - it was right there in your head. Are there other ways that you can be me? Sure thing, we're doing it all the time. "Can you not cover me with something Winterfuhr please because I am so very cold here." Taking torch from wall I say with smile "how about you burn." Then there we are in some snow-scape place and I am cradling your burnt and black against my soft fur "Oh no you shouldn't I'll tarnish, tarnish spoil all the white" you say but I just smile and lean to kiss you. Some charcoal love tonight we write in the snow together. You must think I've suffered enough for now. Then I did lay you down in snowdrifts cold and the charred flesh melts all into the snow which drains into a holethat leads to the the middle of the world.. Some tree rishes up through this hole beneath you but doesn't pierce your breast Alone on top sprawled on leaves closer to the stars... Welcome to my treehouse. You're sitting there some drink in paw and you smile, smile smile because you was in some reverie - that was not real and this is. I ask you if you want to play chess and you say "No I don't do games". I frown at that and then you say "want to hear me play the mandolin ( - which did change in truth to violin)?". Girl the way you play that shit sounds like some caterpillar dragging little deaths. And you do like itso. Then you gasp Calvin and Hobbes are real! There are playing in the corner. Yeah, I know. "Don't don't do that have you no respect You cannot make them fuck" so you think and if it is in your head and here it is then surely there will be fucking going on Then fuck me sweet girl and leave the innocent ones alone. But when at least I reach for you you scream "NO, Don't touch me please in my mouth is the taste of nxxxxi's cum and it is far too sweet. I have been very badMake it go away" More sugar please, no tears. You offer only coriander, vervain and ginger root - no this wont do you really make this hard you shotabeast you really make me hard. But girl do you really think I'd let those teeth anywhere near my dick. Ok so no tears I eeep you biting hard at my neck, suspended in you, paralyzed "Oh, no this pleasure is just at the edge of fury - I could devour you. How will I ensure restraint, especially since it will be so brief, since there really is no tomorrow?" for mere seconds overpowered I feel only delight, extreme kind, you use those seconds wisely. What else than love and vengeance, love and vengeance... You all all over me and cover me and lover me and I fill you instead of me, flood your mouth. Even more sugar please and still no tears! I know you would lick them too but no I must break free you crazy girl and then the one down are you and you only. "Oh please please let me suck you more, the sheen of thatone drop at the very tip of your cock hold the promise of a thousand summers" Err what? Look at you your tongues all blue, disgusting. What do you expect I’mbeen hanging from tress want to see me convulse and loll? Blue tongue or not I bite you so hard on the lips they bleed and suck the colours by kissing now she ia a fox in all no human trace found and he is boy with auburn drool dripping into mouth tongue course to lap. I grab your back fur moan into you. Deeper still you screamed Thrown to the floor "You are no fox, foxes do not talk now get away from me" Across the room some fox maiden appears and purrs oh SCAM but fox girls can indeed--Wait you try to whisper (but your voice is gone again) Anyway that is not the you over there though she is damn lovely Forced to watch forced to watch I fuck her... but then again you are in her you will it and it is so and in that moment I am inside you at last our faces inches apart "Is this not the most extreme thing you've ever felt and you thought it would be mundane" you try to say only the words gnarle in your throat some growl Yes scared princess I cant stand you so fuck you I fuck and fuck you biting little pieces off offyou and we're these animals only and nothing else bleeding and cumming I'm deep inside you when i'm all thru I can't move and leave you Fuck we’re stuck like this and this is in no way romantic. but good thing she is a fox and I a snow leopard i must think and offer you my neck again "Get the fuck off her now" oh no they found us out have come for us at last (you told me we should have hidden welll in the deep deep downs and now it is too late). It is damn hard to kill yourself in a hospital or some jail. Well right you are but I can just wake up. I will I swear I will, but not before I look to see that our bodies are somehow fused and the viscious screams and agony of being sawed apart by those brutes your screams reflected from my sad sad eyes like some dead pool we could go there you whisper and there we are heh just like can you do the telekinesis trick but this place is not okay either "you know this place now this is where you'll in truth one day pull my body from the water". some love will take place here. and the place ios somehow silent and reverentOh. But then you have to go and say "we will just never be happy will we" - not if you don't want us to be. "oh" and in your thirst drink not from that lake it is poisoned sis drink from me drink from my knee instead "your knee?" i mean my navel here is where every- thing begins and and and of course there is water there too. "Now that makes sense the whole knee thing didn't" (and once more the rest is herstory) She l;aps at his navel yes water something sweeter like blood than too late to realize (you shou’ldve screamed that my fangs and flesh had eaten out all all. I woke up thinking I am some animal in thought at least I cannot cannot but think this true. Wer I to lovein truth (Ido) there’d never never be any subtly or lack of carnage. (april1006) 13. Saving my wrists for her a thirty percent dream come cruel-ty amends an earthly life to bitter by delirium tremens a thirty twists of better than my seasons end the search of a surge heard with a grant silent how did i ever think she would come this far and still doing it with a blade, wine and dnr and far in my yard she got with her grave few world gravelanded new days drunk and so gravely girled i will open my bandage now.... done a sip of wine in the final ochre straws of the sun i will bleed now... doing it and the slight pain in my arm soothes all the other shit now as i understand this love story is already told and i feel not empty but loving and otherwise cold seldom is my wrist this badly pained more it is to be should i receive something timecaved i searched furlongs, i feel, of the battlefield she found me but she's not-here 'cause she feared? tämmöinen kakka on kyllä ns. ihan vitun syvältä pian lähden ja sen tietäen... tuntuupa ihan vitun hyvältä!!!111!"!&(/ (guessyoufools1006)